Why do we love?

today ate medicine in morning. felt drowsy at church. but i liked tat feeling..makes me forget everything and juz worship God. so here i am. i've an mc for tml but hu cares. im still goin' to skool. napfa..cant miss it.
since young i have never received birthday presents.not even mi brother. mi parents wld bring me to a restaurant and eat mi hearts out.. well, i cant blame anyone. as much as i like presents, i dun give anything to ppl for their birthdays..so if ppl give me, i feel really guilty..den again mi old tuition t'cher gave me presents.. she really rocks man. den now she gtg work in polyclinic so i hired jonas. its not like mi birthday is tml den i say.its a long long way. but i dun expect any presents. im used to it liao. but its quite disappointing.. :(
i have a feeling tat God wants me to be a DJ. he wants me to create a chrisitian radio station. well..tats jus mi feeling but i will wait for more signs.
life sux! but not mi spiritual life. it rocks! ironic. sometimes ppl dun worship God during worship..eg. today i saw _____ looking around during service,worship time. ppl smsing, playing games.. i admit i did it b4 but i realised it was rude and also God sent the pastor as a middleman for him to speak to us. God-pastor-us. God speaks thru the pastor to us. geddit? well i gtg liao.