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Friday, February 29, 2008
Today was a fairly fruitful day. Went to school all jittery cos of X-country, but after a while it died down cos i was so sian. Had PE and played captain's ball with some girls who had the same PE slot with me. They lived up to their names, GIRLS. Truly bimbotic. They were screaming like "EEW, get your sweaty hands off the ball! Go, go! Pass it to that girl over there! C'mon can't you do anything right? Uhh!" And i, being my usual chao ah beng, was shouting profanities in hokkien, like "Eh! Kin lah! (Faster in hokkien)" and "Siao eh! Don't throw so far lah! Catch properly leh!"
Okay PE aside. I was quite productive today. Did my bio tutorial, and phew, i felt good. Got ready for X-country. And yours truly here got 19th position for J1 boys! (: *applause* Thank you, thank you. At first i was hesitant to chiong all the way, cos it was quite strenuous and i didn't think i could achieve anything. I went all the way without stopping, and surprisingly, i got a medal. YES. It paid off. Went home and now chilling with the guys at Ernest's house. Super tired. Training tmr. TIRED TIRED.
Another thing happened today that really made me feel embarrassed for Singaporeans. As i was going home, i was waiting for the mrt. When it came, all the commuters just stood outside the door, as if the people in the train could walk through them. They couldn't get out, and the people outside were just pushing in all the way. I was like, what the hell? Let them get out first lah! They really feel no shame. I just have nothing to say. Let them continue showing the ugly side of Singaporeans. Go on.
Something occurred today that really blew off my junior's impression of the school. She hasn't settled in yet, and is trying to appeal to JJC, but the school office staff didn't let her out, even though she had an appointment with the JJ principal. She was crying when she walked out of the gate. I think the school system is really ugh! Last year, college event, the same thing happened. This year, exact same thing. These are the things that really make me dislike the school more and more, although i'm really settling with the people already. I feel the people are really nice, and the environment is homely, but the administrative side of this school is _____. Fill in yourself.
Nothing lasts forever..
Okay PE aside. I was quite productive today. Did my bio tutorial, and phew, i felt good. Got ready for X-country. And yours truly here got 19th position for J1 boys! (: *applause* Thank you, thank you. At first i was hesitant to chiong all the way, cos it was quite strenuous and i didn't think i could achieve anything. I went all the way without stopping, and surprisingly, i got a medal. YES. It paid off. Went home and now chilling with the guys at Ernest's house. Super tired. Training tmr. TIRED TIRED.
Another thing happened today that really made me feel embarrassed for Singaporeans. As i was going home, i was waiting for the mrt. When it came, all the commuters just stood outside the door, as if the people in the train could walk through them. They couldn't get out, and the people outside were just pushing in all the way. I was like, what the hell? Let them get out first lah! They really feel no shame. I just have nothing to say. Let them continue showing the ugly side of Singaporeans. Go on.
Something occurred today that really blew off my junior's impression of the school. She hasn't settled in yet, and is trying to appeal to JJC, but the school office staff didn't let her out, even though she had an appointment with the JJ principal. She was crying when she walked out of the gate. I think the school system is really ugh! Last year, college event, the same thing happened. This year, exact same thing. These are the things that really make me dislike the school more and more, although i'm really settling with the people already. I feel the people are really nice, and the environment is homely, but the administrative side of this school is _____. Fill in yourself.
Nothing lasts forever..
joash lee at 10:10 PM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Feeling poetic the past two days, so yeah, that's a result of 1 year of annotating Sylvia Plath's works. You will write like her. And by the way, i think she's an absolute genius. Her poems are the bomb. Anyway, I'm also feeling a lil' emo-istic, because of certain reasons that cannot be disclosed due to privacy. Interpret the two poems however you want it to be, just know that now isn't really a cheerful time, and the mood and tone is kinda suppressive.
Today was a terrible terrible day, and I'm really glad it's over. I spent 8 hours in the canteen playing Bok's psp, cos there are practically no lessons. I freaking wasted my time. Should have stayed home. 8 hours. Am i going to waste my life away like this? Honestly, I'm pretty afraid of retaining again, cos this year they're gonna teach mostly different things, and the pace is like at the speed of sound. Hard to catch up.
Well, Cross-country tmr. Hope all goes well. I really wanna get a medal. I'll just run my best. See how it goes.
Man was made to have a companion. Man has been going all around searching for that companion. What if she wasn't found? What if she was never there? Man would be all lonely and sad. What would man do?
Infatuation kills...
Today was a terrible terrible day, and I'm really glad it's over. I spent 8 hours in the canteen playing Bok's psp, cos there are practically no lessons. I freaking wasted my time. Should have stayed home. 8 hours. Am i going to waste my life away like this? Honestly, I'm pretty afraid of retaining again, cos this year they're gonna teach mostly different things, and the pace is like at the speed of sound. Hard to catch up.
Well, Cross-country tmr. Hope all goes well. I really wanna get a medal. I'll just run my best. See how it goes.
Man was made to have a companion. Man has been going all around searching for that companion. What if she wasn't found? What if she was never there? Man would be all lonely and sad. What would man do?
Infatuation kills...
joash lee at 10:17 PM
PAINT
by Joash Lee
Splattering vivid colours
Spluttered all over the bedroom wall
A myriad of visualistic artefacts
It cannot be torn away
The Paint will stay there,
it will not budge
He strikes the wall, once, twice,
again and again, in vain
He gives up, he gives in.
He turns his face away,
Frantically, looking for the tunnel
where there is light at the end
Howver, there is no escaping for him
The multi-coloured jukebox
is drowning him in the colourful music
Drowning, drowning, drowning,
No one is there to save him.
No one.
Splat.
by Joash Lee
Splattering vivid colours
Spluttered all over the bedroom wall
A myriad of visualistic artefacts
It cannot be torn away
The Paint will stay there,
it will not budge
He strikes the wall, once, twice,
again and again, in vain
He gives up, he gives in.
He turns his face away,
Frantically, looking for the tunnel
where there is light at the end
Howver, there is no escaping for him
The multi-coloured jukebox
is drowning him in the colourful music
Drowning, drowning, drowning,
No one is there to save him.
No one.
Splat.
joash lee at 9:46 PM
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Deception
by Joash Lee
Nostalgia kicks in
Everything is going back to the way it was before.
Suddenly, there's a new light.
You go closer, closer, closer...
You step into the light
Wham!
You're in for a huge surprise.
The light deceived you
It was the bright darkness that disguised as the light
The "light" at the end of every tunnel
Has always been false.
There is no light, only darkness.
Darkness forbids you to enter into the light,
It forbids you to really be who you are
It just sucks you up,
Like the vacuum that sucks up every dust particle
You are the minute little piece of dust
Succumbing to each and every single overpowering mechanism
You kick and you push and you struggle your way out
But there is no "Out"
Only the "light" at the end of the tunnel
by Joash Lee
Nostalgia kicks in
Everything is going back to the way it was before.
Suddenly, there's a new light.
You go closer, closer, closer...
You step into the light
Wham!
You're in for a huge surprise.
The light deceived you
It was the bright darkness that disguised as the light
The "light" at the end of every tunnel
Has always been false.
There is no light, only darkness.
Darkness forbids you to enter into the light,
It forbids you to really be who you are
It just sucks you up,
Like the vacuum that sucks up every dust particle
You are the minute little piece of dust
Succumbing to each and every single overpowering mechanism
You kick and you push and you struggle your way out
But there is no "Out"
Only the "light" at the end of the tunnel
joash lee at 10:16 PM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Today I saw the ugly side of Singaporeans. I was outside Lot 1 , waiting at the bus stop, when this taxi swerved into the outer lane. And a motorcyclist, to prevent himself from banging into the taxi, swerved into the railings and lost control of the bike, and the whole bike just fell. His girlfriend (I presume), a young school girl, was flung off the bike while the guy was clinging on to his bike for dear life.
When we heard the crash, everyone at the bus stop immediately turned to see what the commotion was about, and upon seeing the two victims sprawled on the road, they all gasped. I was with Sandy, and the guy was so desperately trying to get his bike out of the road, and everything fell out of his boot. Pitying the guy and his situation, i told Sandy i was going up to help him. And on the way, i think i mumbled something quite loudly, "Bloody Singaporeans, all oooh aaah, but none go help him."
I went to help him clear his stuff (that fell out of the boot) off the road, and Sandy helped him too. After that we went to attend to the girl who was hurt. She was a young secondary school girl, and she had scrapes on her arm and leg. I guess she was in shock. She asked us for water and tissue, and she kept cleaning her arm with the tissue frantically, and it was swollen. We persuaded her to go to the doctor's, and she said it was okay. The guy finally dragged his bike to the side of the road, and then came to ask us for tissue too. He was really really in trauma, cos his hand was trembling real badly. He spoke in malay to his girl friend, and i heard something like "pukimakao, stupid taxi driver, c*** b**". He must have really been in shock cos i don't think he realised we were still there. just kept scolding the taxi driver. While his girl friend kept showing us verbal appreciation, which we casually shrugged off, cos i felt it was the right thing to do.
There clearly was alot of people at the bus stop, and everyone, i meant everyone, freaking hell didn't even bother to go help the poor guy out. They thought that their eye power was good enough. Like, "Gasp! Is that guy alright? He looks hurt!" Damn it of course he isn't alright! He needs freaking help! I rememberly vividly, I approached one other guy to go on the road with me to help the guy lift his bike to the side of the road, and the guy just ignored me. What the freak. Then after the whole incident, i saw him standing behind the bus stop, still waiting for the bus, with not the least regard for the poor soul.
I mean, c'mon. What would you have done? This is exactly the kind of situation that makes us Singaporeans look ugly. I always read in the papers (and sometimes Reader's Digest too), often we SAY that we'll help people whenever help is required. But when the real thing comes, we all don't DO it. So why talk the talk when you can't even walk your own talk? I just hope that people will just be more considerate, and learn not to be just bystanders. If you can help someone in need, what's stopping you? Pride? Wasting your own time? Not important to you? None of your business? Sometimes we have to look past ourselves to see the greater need in other people. It cannot always be me myself i, if you haven't already realised. We live in a community, and what is the community for? To help one another, duh. So please, those of you reading this blog, i urge you guys to help others whenever the need arises, and not only when it's for your own convenience.
I guess all this was planned, cos Sandy and I were supposed to take the first bus 307, but it was too crowded with school kids, so we decided to take the other one, when we saw the accident. All predestined.
I think this caused me to think of other stuff too, like how people often say things but don't actually do it. This is really a bad image for us, especially Christians. So yeahh. I don't know what else to say, cos i really can't live that life out.
i just need you to be next to me.
When we heard the crash, everyone at the bus stop immediately turned to see what the commotion was about, and upon seeing the two victims sprawled on the road, they all gasped. I was with Sandy, and the guy was so desperately trying to get his bike out of the road, and everything fell out of his boot. Pitying the guy and his situation, i told Sandy i was going up to help him. And on the way, i think i mumbled something quite loudly, "Bloody Singaporeans, all oooh aaah, but none go help him."
I went to help him clear his stuff (that fell out of the boot) off the road, and Sandy helped him too. After that we went to attend to the girl who was hurt. She was a young secondary school girl, and she had scrapes on her arm and leg. I guess she was in shock. She asked us for water and tissue, and she kept cleaning her arm with the tissue frantically, and it was swollen. We persuaded her to go to the doctor's, and she said it was okay. The guy finally dragged his bike to the side of the road, and then came to ask us for tissue too. He was really really in trauma, cos his hand was trembling real badly. He spoke in malay to his girl friend, and i heard something like "pukimakao, stupid taxi driver, c*** b**". He must have really been in shock cos i don't think he realised we were still there. just kept scolding the taxi driver. While his girl friend kept showing us verbal appreciation, which we casually shrugged off, cos i felt it was the right thing to do.
There clearly was alot of people at the bus stop, and everyone, i meant everyone, freaking hell didn't even bother to go help the poor guy out. They thought that their eye power was good enough. Like, "Gasp! Is that guy alright? He looks hurt!" Damn it of course he isn't alright! He needs freaking help! I rememberly vividly, I approached one other guy to go on the road with me to help the guy lift his bike to the side of the road, and the guy just ignored me. What the freak. Then after the whole incident, i saw him standing behind the bus stop, still waiting for the bus, with not the least regard for the poor soul.
I mean, c'mon. What would you have done? This is exactly the kind of situation that makes us Singaporeans look ugly. I always read in the papers (and sometimes Reader's Digest too), often we SAY that we'll help people whenever help is required. But when the real thing comes, we all don't DO it. So why talk the talk when you can't even walk your own talk? I just hope that people will just be more considerate, and learn not to be just bystanders. If you can help someone in need, what's stopping you? Pride? Wasting your own time? Not important to you? None of your business? Sometimes we have to look past ourselves to see the greater need in other people. It cannot always be me myself i, if you haven't already realised. We live in a community, and what is the community for? To help one another, duh. So please, those of you reading this blog, i urge you guys to help others whenever the need arises, and not only when it's for your own convenience.
I guess all this was planned, cos Sandy and I were supposed to take the first bus 307, but it was too crowded with school kids, so we decided to take the other one, when we saw the accident. All predestined.
I think this caused me to think of other stuff too, like how people often say things but don't actually do it. This is really a bad image for us, especially Christians. So yeahh. I don't know what else to say, cos i really can't live that life out.
i just need you to be next to me.
joash lee at 10:21 PM
Monday, February 25, 2008
Congratulations! This is the 250th post for my blog. It's a milestone, and i've written many many things over the past 3 years. Amazing huh. So yeah, continue spamming my tagboard with your anonymous tags.
So anyway, today was ultimate slack day. Assembly first thing in the morning, followed by a 2 hour self-declared break, and then H1 Bio, and then i end! All self-declared of course. Anyway it's all introductory lectures so i don't see the point in going. Went home to chill for a while, and then i went to catch Jumper with Sandy. I had free movie passes, so yeah. Jumper sucked. Real bad. It was pure stupidity. Like watching people jump from here to there, and people catching the jumpers for no particular reason. I didn't enjoy it on the whole, it was really terrible. But i enjoyed the company though, thanks! I still have yet to catch the movie i've so wanted badly to watch, P.S I Love You. Should watch it sometime before it goes off cinemas. Any takes?
So anyway, today was ultimate slack day. Assembly first thing in the morning, followed by a 2 hour self-declared break, and then H1 Bio, and then i end! All self-declared of course. Anyway it's all introductory lectures so i don't see the point in going. Went home to chill for a while, and then i went to catch Jumper with Sandy. I had free movie passes, so yeah. Jumper sucked. Real bad. It was pure stupidity. Like watching people jump from here to there, and people catching the jumpers for no particular reason. I didn't enjoy it on the whole, it was really terrible. But i enjoyed the company though, thanks! I still have yet to catch the movie i've so wanted badly to watch, P.S I Love You. Should watch it sometime before it goes off cinemas. Any takes?
joash lee at 9:02 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Chilled with the guys AGAIN on saturday. Darn we're really spending alot of time together. And because of that, damn it, people are spamming my freaking tagboard. I bet it's jason. What's wrong with you?? Never mind, as long as it brings life to my blog. I just want people to read and not get bored. I guess now the thing that really is going on in my life is just studies and volleyball. After seeing the way we played on saturday against VS and VJ, i think we can make it to Top 4. We won VS, drew with VJ, and our main spiker (Shawn) wasn't even playing. He sprained his ankle and it swell like a bomb. Well, Shawn, just take care for now and have fun with the crutches. We'll help you.. Imagined if Shawn played, whoa, we'll be like damn powerful already. Okay i'm getting complacent. Humility is key. We just have enough confidence, that'll do.
Just came back from my run. The longest longest longest run i've ever ran in my entire life so far. I met Boon Kai at Bukit Batok MRT station. then we started running... run... run... run... call us crazy, we ran from Bukit Batok to Yew Tee MRT. We started at 820, and when we reached Yew Tee, it was 920. Damn. We're good. My legs are freaking tired now. Will attempt to walk tmr. Never before done. We're good. Damn. Haha.
Just came back from my run. The longest longest longest run i've ever ran in my entire life so far. I met Boon Kai at Bukit Batok MRT station. then we started running... run... run... run... call us crazy, we ran from Bukit Batok to Yew Tee MRT. We started at 820, and when we reached Yew Tee, it was 920. Damn. We're good. My legs are freaking tired now. Will attempt to walk tmr. Never before done. We're good. Damn. Haha.
joash lee at 10:05 PM
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Had fun on the last day of PAE with my "class". Supposedly all were to turn up, but in the end, it was just the usuals, as usual. So we went for lunch, followed by bowling, and then went to eat like pigs. Ate Pontian wanton noodles at Heeren. After that we went to Hip Diner's for desert.
Grace had Sex on the Coast. (;
I had the Classic Vanilla Milkshake.
Left to right: Chocolate Milkshake, Sex on the Coast, Vanilla Milkshake
And also, today after PT, the guys came over to chill out with my xbox.
Sleepy Sleepy!
Engrossed!
Amazing what Football can do to one's attention span.
Grace had Sex on the Coast. (;
I had the Classic Vanilla Milkshake.
Left to right: Chocolate Milkshake, Sex on the Coast, Vanilla Milkshake
And also, today after PT, the guys came over to chill out with my xbox.
Sleepy Sleepy!
Engrossed!
Amazing what Football can do to one's attention span.
joash lee at 12:23 AM
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
helloo people. stupid spammers on my tagboard. I asked you guys to tag, but not to tag with fake names!! hahaha. okay never mind. as long as i know who is who, tell me in school.
Well, today wasn't so bad. Got to know a few J1s, and there are like MANY fairsians in PJ, so it's kinda nice to see familiar faces. And it's great to know that the three Bukit Panjang volleyballers are staying in PJ! Now our chances of top 4 have increased! (:
You know how i used to hate PJ so so much? Okay, in case in you guys didn't know, i did. i hated the whole school and everything. But now, i've kinda changed my mind. One BIG factor was(is) volleyball. I guess the only thing i really abhor is the school's way of doing things. The people are super friendly, the teachers are nice (some), and its just a homely environment. It's great so far. I've been enjoying myself this few weeks/months.
So it's orientation tmr! And already have one EC. HAHAH. Guys if you know keep it to yourself. See you tmr! oh we're going to the PADANG to watch the results live for Singapore's bid for the 2010 youth olympics. Let's hope we get it. ((:
Pioneer volleyball supports Singapore's bid for the Youth Olympics 2010.
Well, today wasn't so bad. Got to know a few J1s, and there are like MANY fairsians in PJ, so it's kinda nice to see familiar faces. And it's great to know that the three Bukit Panjang volleyballers are staying in PJ! Now our chances of top 4 have increased! (:
You know how i used to hate PJ so so much? Okay, in case in you guys didn't know, i did. i hated the whole school and everything. But now, i've kinda changed my mind. One BIG factor was(is) volleyball. I guess the only thing i really abhor is the school's way of doing things. The people are super friendly, the teachers are nice (some), and its just a homely environment. It's great so far. I've been enjoying myself this few weeks/months.
So it's orientation tmr! And already have one EC. HAHAH. Guys if you know keep it to yourself. See you tmr! oh we're going to the PADANG to watch the results live for Singapore's bid for the 2010 youth olympics. Let's hope we get it. ((:
Pioneer volleyball supports Singapore's bid for the Youth Olympics 2010.
joash lee at 11:26 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
all that's at home is just fucking screwed up. sometimes i dont' understand.
joash lee at 9:09 PM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
I finally bought my water bottle that i so badly wanted few days ago. I am pleased. So you see, when you get your act together, you can achieve what you want. I'm randomly bullshitting. I'm blogging for the sake of my english language, as i fear that it has started to deteriorate already. So constant blogging will help me activate the english brain inside of me, and remove the rust that has formed through the constant use of singlish and broken english.
Kudos to all who are doing all they can to save the environment. Personally, i'm not a huge fan of saving the environment, but as a human being living on this planet Earth, i feel obligated to do my part to protect it from the evil forces of our deadly man-made waste. Refusing plastic bags, switching off all unused electrical appliances in the house when i go to school, taking public transport more often... the list goes on. There are so many things you can do to save the environment. If everybody does a lil' something on their part, imagine how much of the World can we actually save.
All i can say is press on. Think of the times you've encouraged me, and it meant more to me than anything. Now i'd do the same to you, if you need me, i'll always be there, as your friend.
Kudos to all who are doing all they can to save the environment. Personally, i'm not a huge fan of saving the environment, but as a human being living on this planet Earth, i feel obligated to do my part to protect it from the evil forces of our deadly man-made waste. Refusing plastic bags, switching off all unused electrical appliances in the house when i go to school, taking public transport more often... the list goes on. There are so many things you can do to save the environment. If everybody does a lil' something on their part, imagine how much of the World can we actually save.
All i can say is press on. Think of the times you've encouraged me, and it meant more to me than anything. Now i'd do the same to you, if you need me, i'll always be there, as your friend.
joash lee at 11:18 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Long day today. So so boring. Met the guys (again!) at macs for breakfast before heading to school to watch our oh-so-motivational video. We felt really good. Lol. Just hope that the spirit remains and we shall get our long-fantasized dream, A DIVISION FINALS. It'll be hell of an experience i tell you. But, it's a long way to go, cos we have much much more trainings to go, and train the shit out of all of us. Today we trained for 2 hours only, cos the girls trained first. The split up training finally started, and honestly, it wasn't as noisy, but it was definitely much more effective. (The girls think so too.)
The plan was to go study with Bok Ernest and Sim (again!!), but Bok and Sim decided that studying was the last thing on their mind, so they went out with their respective friends to mahjong or to shop. So Ernest and I went home to ROT. I slept for 3 hours. So freaking tired.. Then went out to Jack's Place to celebrate my Mom's birthday, which is tmr. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM. Even though you constantly nag at me, even though you scold me and do weird stuff, i still <3 you.
And the past 2 weeks, the guys have been teasing me on how i know every girl in school. That is not true i swear. Just because everytime after training i say bye to some girls... And they claim that out of all the people sitting in the canteen, I know at least one girl from each table. What the shit right. Lame poks. I can't help it that my class is full of girls and girly guys, and sometimes i make friends with their friends, so i have many friends. They're mere acquaintances, not as if i FATA. (another guy secret.) Unlike some people, i don't plan to go for every hot girl i see, and screw up their life so bad, that they end up hating guys. Nah, truth be told, i hate guys like that. They're just being bastards, and i'm not saying all these just to be the ladies' man or what, but really, some people are way over the top. Girls are not sexual toys for guys to fulfill their sexual pleasures with. So please treat them with respect. God created men to lead women, not to play with them. You know what i mean.
Okay, I listened to Colbie Caillat's album already, two songs stand out the most. Bubbly and Realize. And the rest of the songs are practically about the same, more or less. The tune and everything, but over all it isn't so bad.
JAE is starting next week, and i'd be lying if I said I'm excited. I can't probably be going through the whole motion of orientation all over again. It'd be so so boring and i just don't want it, although making new friends seems tempting. Please let me be in a good OG, or else i'm gonna die.
I'm just living by the moment, literally. Haven't been touching my guitar for a long long time. And haven't played drums for God knows how long. I need to revive my passion for music! Am i screwing up my life? Damn it, it's always like that. As Bok commented, "18 already still no gf, and then Vday must go out with singles like you all, we're just sad." Yeah we are. But we have so much freedom, but isn't it nice to have someone. Y'know? I'm sure you do. It's nice right? Yeah it is.
If only...
The plan was to go study with Bok Ernest and Sim (again!!), but Bok and Sim decided that studying was the last thing on their mind, so they went out with their respective friends to mahjong or to shop. So Ernest and I went home to ROT. I slept for 3 hours. So freaking tired.. Then went out to Jack's Place to celebrate my Mom's birthday, which is tmr. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM. Even though you constantly nag at me, even though you scold me and do weird stuff, i still <3 you.
And the past 2 weeks, the guys have been teasing me on how i know every girl in school. That is not true i swear. Just because everytime after training i say bye to some girls... And they claim that out of all the people sitting in the canteen, I know at least one girl from each table. What the shit right. Lame poks. I can't help it that my class is full of girls and girly guys, and sometimes i make friends with their friends, so i have many friends. They're mere acquaintances, not as if i FATA. (another guy secret.) Unlike some people, i don't plan to go for every hot girl i see, and screw up their life so bad, that they end up hating guys. Nah, truth be told, i hate guys like that. They're just being bastards, and i'm not saying all these just to be the ladies' man or what, but really, some people are way over the top. Girls are not sexual toys for guys to fulfill their sexual pleasures with. So please treat them with respect. God created men to lead women, not to play with them. You know what i mean.
Okay, I listened to Colbie Caillat's album already, two songs stand out the most. Bubbly and Realize. And the rest of the songs are practically about the same, more or less. The tune and everything, but over all it isn't so bad.
JAE is starting next week, and i'd be lying if I said I'm excited. I can't probably be going through the whole motion of orientation all over again. It'd be so so boring and i just don't want it, although making new friends seems tempting. Please let me be in a good OG, or else i'm gonna die.
I'm just living by the moment, literally. Haven't been touching my guitar for a long long time. And haven't played drums for God knows how long. I need to revive my passion for music! Am i screwing up my life? Damn it, it's always like that. As Bok commented, "18 already still no gf, and then Vday must go out with singles like you all, we're just sad." Yeah we are. But we have so much freedom, but isn't it nice to have someone. Y'know? I'm sure you do. It's nice right? Yeah it is.
If only...
joash lee at 11:16 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
Today was the bomb man. Although the academics was crap. Everyone decided to be a rebel and pon almost all the lessons. Me being the guai kia that i am, attended ALL lessons. I was really kinda quite disappointed because some people were really badly influencing others, and i'm not gonna point fingers, but yeah, i'm just sad. Well, their own academics are in their hands, not like i'm in any position to tell them what to do, because i freaking retained.
Well, after school which ended at 130, i had lunch with grace, and after that, the fun started. (: Met up with bok and we went to the hall, had a 3-0n-3 soccer game with jaguar's friends, and WE WON. Joash, Bok and Jaguar are the undisputed champions of futsal! Waahahaha. Okay anyway, after that we went down to meet Ernest. And slacked a while before going out to play a lil' more soccer. Then the girls joined, and soon everyone came. So we had captains ball, and i was so bloody tired. The girls were being jokes cos they were like all on the bench. so it was kinda easy to score. Stupid YY kept blocking the shots. jump so high. bugger.
Okay, played for darn long, till we got sick and tired of it. So we reverted back to SOCCER. Not too bad. Chloe and Charmain are quite brave, they headed the ball. hahaha, and xinyi is damn good. for a girl lah. okay that wasn't the main thing of the day.
After everything ended, i headed with the guys to lot 1 to KFC. Ate, then went to popular to get some stuff. It was kinda like bonding session. YY left with his gf, weiliang went home. guess where we went? Bok, Ernest and Sim came over to my house to play my newly fixed xbox. We have been hanging out with each other like every day since wednesday. Haaha, this is what happens when you're single. YOU'RE MUCH MORE FREE. So being single isn't that bad, ALL YOU COUPLES OUT THERE. Anyway, we're going to study tmr after training. So it's 4 days in a row already. We're gonna turn gays soon. LOL.
Sometimes i wonder. Ernest was right. If i was still attached, would i give this much time to the volleyball guys? Would we be as tight as we are now? Maybe going back to singlehood wasn't such a bad thing after all. But everything has it's pros and cons. I just don't know, I hope we stay close friends, cos they're the best bunch of people i've ever had. Some proper guys to hang out with. LOL. I don't see much of guys around in school, cos i'm in arts.
Btw i bought Colbie Caillat's new album, Coco. Haven't listened to it.. I bet it's gonna be damn good. Okay. I'm off to have some peace now. Maybe watch some tv. See you guys.
Jesus is the reason that I live
Jesus is the reason that I give
With all I am I'll praise you,
Give you honour and glory that's due.
Well, after school which ended at 130, i had lunch with grace, and after that, the fun started. (: Met up with bok and we went to the hall, had a 3-0n-3 soccer game with jaguar's friends, and WE WON. Joash, Bok and Jaguar are the undisputed champions of futsal! Waahahaha. Okay anyway, after that we went down to meet Ernest. And slacked a while before going out to play a lil' more soccer. Then the girls joined, and soon everyone came. So we had captains ball, and i was so bloody tired. The girls were being jokes cos they were like all on the bench. so it was kinda easy to score. Stupid YY kept blocking the shots. jump so high. bugger.
Okay, played for darn long, till we got sick and tired of it. So we reverted back to SOCCER. Not too bad. Chloe and Charmain are quite brave, they headed the ball. hahaha, and xinyi is damn good. for a girl lah. okay that wasn't the main thing of the day.
After everything ended, i headed with the guys to lot 1 to KFC. Ate, then went to popular to get some stuff. It was kinda like bonding session. YY left with his gf, weiliang went home. guess where we went? Bok, Ernest and Sim came over to my house to play my newly fixed xbox. We have been hanging out with each other like every day since wednesday. Haaha, this is what happens when you're single. YOU'RE MUCH MORE FREE. So being single isn't that bad, ALL YOU COUPLES OUT THERE. Anyway, we're going to study tmr after training. So it's 4 days in a row already. We're gonna turn gays soon. LOL.
Sometimes i wonder. Ernest was right. If i was still attached, would i give this much time to the volleyball guys? Would we be as tight as we are now? Maybe going back to singlehood wasn't such a bad thing after all. But everything has it's pros and cons. I just don't know, I hope we stay close friends, cos they're the best bunch of people i've ever had. Some proper guys to hang out with. LOL. I don't see much of guys around in school, cos i'm in arts.
Btw i bought Colbie Caillat's new album, Coco. Haven't listened to it.. I bet it's gonna be damn good. Okay. I'm off to have some peace now. Maybe watch some tv. See you guys.
Jesus is the reason that I live
Jesus is the reason that I give
With all I am I'll praise you,
Give you honour and glory that's due.
joash lee at 11:28 PM
Today on the whole wasn't as bad as i expected it to be. Got quite alot of gifts from people, and of course, being the generous person that i am, i also gave away some presents. I made excess, so i could give away to majority of my friends, the people that i know.. And it was good, i cheered some people up. (:
After school i headed home, and later in the evening went out with the bachelors. Boon Kai and Sim. We were like losers, complaining everytime we saw a couple, cos we were so jealous. LOL. And, we realised how old we were, like 18 years old already, and still no date or gf. So we three went to celebrate our singlehood, had burger king and headed to Bukit Timah Plaza for pool. Played for 2 and a half hours.
If today was called friendship day, it wouldn't have been so bad. But the word Valentines just stroke up the passion in other people, and just PDA to the max everywhere around Singapore. We bachelors just ignore and ignore.
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY. (:
After school i headed home, and later in the evening went out with the bachelors. Boon Kai and Sim. We were like losers, complaining everytime we saw a couple, cos we were so jealous. LOL. And, we realised how old we were, like 18 years old already, and still no date or gf. So we three went to celebrate our singlehood, had burger king and headed to Bukit Timah Plaza for pool. Played for 2 and a half hours.
If today was called friendship day, it wouldn't have been so bad. But the word Valentines just stroke up the passion in other people, and just PDA to the max everywhere around Singapore. We bachelors just ignore and ignore.
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY. (:
joash lee at 12:31 AM
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Tomorrow is the most commercialized event in the whole of the year, VALENTINE'S DAY, yet i've bought 10 dollars worth of sweets to give out. I've succumbed to the powers of the media. I feel so unhappy this time of year, because I don't have a date. Lol. Just kidding. Okay let's look at this subjectively. My clique, all have either bfs or gfs, so they'll be going out with them tmr, and the rest, they have dates. So where does that leave me? Going to lesson all alone. AAAGGGHH. Lessons end at 3 tmr, and many are planning to pon Lit, which is from 130-300, just to go out.
But fret not. I'll probably make a date with the guys who also don't have dates. HAHAH. We'll have a bachelor party. Don't call us losers, we're just people who aren't in love. And hanging out with friends. THAT'S ALL. Look out for the sweets tmr! I'll see if i have enough to go around. If you want sweets, look for me first thing in the morning. From me and me only, have a happy valentine's day tmr. (:
But fret not. I'll probably make a date with the guys who also don't have dates. HAHAH. We'll have a bachelor party. Don't call us losers, we're just people who aren't in love. And hanging out with friends. THAT'S ALL. Look out for the sweets tmr! I'll see if i have enough to go around. If you want sweets, look for me first thing in the morning. From me and me only, have a happy valentine's day tmr. (:
joash lee at 9:12 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
I've gotten enlightenment today. From a song. Cry out to Jesus by Third Day. I was going home from tuition, and i just cleared my mind and thought about everything. And i realised one thing. It's all very simple. Life is simple. It's just that i complicate things so much that i stress myself. The basis in life, is to live for Jesus, and do everything in honour of His name, and to love one another. It's that simple. Yet i'm bringing in so many other things to mess up my own life, and all these other things distract me from my one and only goal, my only focus. That is to turn my eyes upon Jesus, looking full in His wonderful face, and the things of this world will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace. ((: I know i'm not perfect. But i'm making every effort to change. God still loves me, ANYWAY.
Love in spite of...
Here's the link to the song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqhEWpGVJSs&feature=related
Third Day - Cry Out To Jesus
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye
And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right
Chorus:
There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus
For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They’ve lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough
For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering
Chorus:
When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
To the widow who suffers from being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight
Love in spite of...
Here's the link to the song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqhEWpGVJSs&feature=related
Third Day - Cry Out To Jesus
From the album Wherever You Are
To everyone who's lost someone they loveLong before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye
And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right
Chorus:
There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus
For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They’ve lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough
For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering
Chorus:
When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
To the widow who suffers from being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight
joash lee at 11:12 PM
Monday, February 11, 2008
I'm damn bloody tired. But i managed to drag myself to yewtee macs to study with huimin. Tmr fairfield vs catholic high. Better be good, cos i'm going down to support my alma mater. nothing much to blog about really. so i'm going off to sleep now.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE. (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE. (:
joash lee at 11:35 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
I'm darn uptight now. Just watched Man Utd lose to Man City, and with the league title at stake, cos it's the second half of the league already. Anyway, that aside. I'm really living on the edge, hanging by a thread, whatever you wanna call it. It's just been really chaotic in my head now, so i really want to get out of everything, and just relax, just clear my thoughts now, and to rethink some stuff. Mostly religion. If not, relationships, and my lifestyle. This is probably the craziest time of my life, i've never thought so deep about these things before. I don't know how i'm going to survive this, and what the outcome will be. Let's seeeeeee.
Let's talk about today. Well, i spent a shitload of money today. After church went to distribute oranges, and soon after, the spending spree began. My family went out with two other families, supposed to be cell outing but many couldn't make it. We had Sakae Sushi for lunch, then, a lil' shopping done, after which we settled at Coffee Bean to chill out. Next stop, Mount Faber SAFRA for bowling, and we bowled 4 games. So it was tiring (for them) and money consuming. It's been so long since i spent that amount of money. Probably gonna spend more tmr if i go town. Lol. See me on the streets on Tuesday as a begger. HAHA. Just kidding.
Let's talk about today. Well, i spent a shitload of money today. After church went to distribute oranges, and soon after, the spending spree began. My family went out with two other families, supposed to be cell outing but many couldn't make it. We had Sakae Sushi for lunch, then, a lil' shopping done, after which we settled at Coffee Bean to chill out. Next stop, Mount Faber SAFRA for bowling, and we bowled 4 games. So it was tiring (for them) and money consuming. It's been so long since i spent that amount of money. Probably gonna spend more tmr if i go town. Lol. See me on the streets on Tuesday as a begger. HAHA. Just kidding.
joash lee at 11:43 PM
Friday, February 8, 2008
CHINESE NEW YEAR DAY 1
Went to my Uncle's house first, the one who got a stroke and became paralysed. Now he's starting to learn to stand on his own already. Not bad progress. Stayed there a while, after which left for Ahma's house for lunch. Ate quite alot, then slacked and watched MVP: Most Valuable Primate. It's quite touching, and quite nice. Though i found out at the end that the "monkey" wasn't real. They were actors in costumes. It really seemed real though. Well, as with every year, went to my grandaunty's house and then back to my other grandma's house for dinner. That's day 1.
CHINESE NEW YEAR DAY 2
Today was exciting. Visited my godma! I only see her like once a year, so i always look forward to going to her house. Her daughter is so big already, and she's only K2! Very cute and shy. Ate lunch there, my favourite bratswurst sausages. Stayed for about 2 hours, then left for another grandaunty's house. It got more interesting. This is the first time that i visit her that so many others were coincidentally there too.
All my dad's cousins appeared, and i've never ever seen them before! For crying out loud. They looked please to see me, cos i think the last time they saw me was when i was like tiny. Anyway i just sat there and listened to their conversations, it was so... interesting. They reminisced about how they used to spend all day baking/cooking/sewing something, and that now they cannot do so because they have no time.
I totally agree (with the no time part) cos Singapore's pace is too damn fast, once you stop to catch a breather, you're few steps behind everyone else. So yeah, that's why so many people choose to migrate overseas, like Australia, New Zealand... I would want to go there too. After listening and everything we finally headed home cos we had visitors coming over. Ate, played, talked. Same stuff every year, and i hate it.
Did i mention i hate routines? Yeah i do. So it's like crap lah, every year, we never expand our family circle, and we just visit the same few people, and my angbao collection is limited. LOL. Just kidding. Well, that's my New Year's for now. Tmr heading out with boon kai and sim to Queensway, and if it's close, to Town.
See you guys in a bit..
Went to my Uncle's house first, the one who got a stroke and became paralysed. Now he's starting to learn to stand on his own already. Not bad progress. Stayed there a while, after which left for Ahma's house for lunch. Ate quite alot, then slacked and watched MVP: Most Valuable Primate. It's quite touching, and quite nice. Though i found out at the end that the "monkey" wasn't real. They were actors in costumes. It really seemed real though. Well, as with every year, went to my grandaunty's house and then back to my other grandma's house for dinner. That's day 1.
CHINESE NEW YEAR DAY 2
Today was exciting. Visited my godma! I only see her like once a year, so i always look forward to going to her house. Her daughter is so big already, and she's only K2! Very cute and shy. Ate lunch there, my favourite bratswurst sausages. Stayed for about 2 hours, then left for another grandaunty's house. It got more interesting. This is the first time that i visit her that so many others were coincidentally there too.
All my dad's cousins appeared, and i've never ever seen them before! For crying out loud. They looked please to see me, cos i think the last time they saw me was when i was like tiny. Anyway i just sat there and listened to their conversations, it was so... interesting. They reminisced about how they used to spend all day baking/cooking/sewing something, and that now they cannot do so because they have no time.
I totally agree (with the no time part) cos Singapore's pace is too damn fast, once you stop to catch a breather, you're few steps behind everyone else. So yeah, that's why so many people choose to migrate overseas, like Australia, New Zealand... I would want to go there too. After listening and everything we finally headed home cos we had visitors coming over. Ate, played, talked. Same stuff every year, and i hate it.
Did i mention i hate routines? Yeah i do. So it's like crap lah, every year, we never expand our family circle, and we just visit the same few people, and my angbao collection is limited. LOL. Just kidding. Well, that's my New Year's for now. Tmr heading out with boon kai and sim to Queensway, and if it's close, to Town.
See you guys in a bit..
joash lee at 8:43 PM
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE.
Not a bad day today. Woke up super early (620am) to go accompany YongYao to Choa Chu Kang Polyclinic to remove his 5 stitches, sad to say, which i caused. We were no. 2012, and it started at 2000, so we figured it'll take super long. We two then walked opposite to Teck Whye Kopitiam to have our breakfast, and trust me we ate alot! By the time we got back, the no. was 2036 and we were utterly shocked. Anyway, we didn't have to wait long before his stitches were removed.
After which i went to West Coast street soccer court to meet up with the fairfield gang to play soccer. I thought i was late (930), apparently some idiots were still sleeping and there were like only 5 of them there. Played till about 12 plus, 1pm, and i had to go for lunch at my grandma's.
Headed home after lunch, rested a while and headed to my other grandma's hosue for reunion dinner. And i just came back.
RANDOM THOUGHTS (more like new year's resolutions)
This year, i only want to do the things that matter. I know I've repeated this many times, but stil I wanna reiterate it, I will not waste my time on useless things.
I will make an effort to make new friends, and be friendly to everyone.
I will try to love my enemies, though they may be bastards or bitches.
I don't know where I'm headed spiritually.
I will add to my collection of CDs and buy new books to read.
Not a bad day today. Woke up super early (620am) to go accompany YongYao to Choa Chu Kang Polyclinic to remove his 5 stitches, sad to say, which i caused. We were no. 2012, and it started at 2000, so we figured it'll take super long. We two then walked opposite to Teck Whye Kopitiam to have our breakfast, and trust me we ate alot! By the time we got back, the no. was 2036 and we were utterly shocked. Anyway, we didn't have to wait long before his stitches were removed.
After which i went to West Coast street soccer court to meet up with the fairfield gang to play soccer. I thought i was late (930), apparently some idiots were still sleeping and there were like only 5 of them there. Played till about 12 plus, 1pm, and i had to go for lunch at my grandma's.
Headed home after lunch, rested a while and headed to my other grandma's hosue for reunion dinner. And i just came back.
RANDOM THOUGHTS (more like new year's resolutions)
This year, i only want to do the things that matter. I know I've repeated this many times, but stil I wanna reiterate it, I will not waste my time on useless things.
I will make an effort to make new friends, and be friendly to everyone.
I will try to love my enemies, though they may be bastards or bitches.
I don't know where I'm headed spiritually.
I will add to my collection of CDs and buy new books to read.
joash lee at 9:33 PM
Monday, February 4, 2008
Today was slack. But i managed to find time to finish up my math tutorials. Amazing. It's been so long since i've went to yew tee macs to do work. Somehow, i feel that i'm gonna screw up this year again, with so many activities and all, i just feel like i'm going to die, not putting God first. It's been so many times, i don't know what i go to church for, I don't know why i do my quiet time, i don't know why. i just... don't. I'm currently leading a bunch of sec 1s in church, and playing guitar and drums for the music min, and also have to attend my own cell group. I just feel like it's all not worth it. It's all not important in life. I wanna do the things that really matter, and the things that will impact other people's lives.
The thing i'm most concerned now, and i feel most strongly about, is my volleyball team. I'm serious. As quoted by Ernest Phua, this is the first time i have felt so dedicated and committed to a team. And i really know that we can get top 4, after the things we've been through. And trust me, it's been a long long way. We taught them, and saw them grow in skills, and now they play as if they've been playing for 3 years, though they've only played for less than a year. I'm super impressed, and i will do ANYTHING to bring this team to the A division finals.
Yeah, that's what's going on now. As for spirituality, i feel as if i've distanced from everyone. Like, my church cell, i haven't met them in a month. And my own cell, we haven't met up since 3 weeks ago, and the previous one was 2 months ago. It's just i feel like i have nobody to run the race with me, and i just feel like giving up. One by one, all are faltering. And believe me, i've ever had serious thoughts about giving up too, cos it all seems so easy, to backslide from christianity and all, and with no one to be accountable to, it just feels like it's the right thing to do, cos i ain't living it out anyway.
Well, now, main focus, studies, volleyball, and hopefully get back on track with God. Some things just aren't fair, like how bad things always happen to good people, and the bad people seem to be living the good life. I'm a good guy, i feel i deserve good things in my life. But it just ain't happening... It just ain't happening.
The thing i'm most concerned now, and i feel most strongly about, is my volleyball team. I'm serious. As quoted by Ernest Phua, this is the first time i have felt so dedicated and committed to a team. And i really know that we can get top 4, after the things we've been through. And trust me, it's been a long long way. We taught them, and saw them grow in skills, and now they play as if they've been playing for 3 years, though they've only played for less than a year. I'm super impressed, and i will do ANYTHING to bring this team to the A division finals.
Yeah, that's what's going on now. As for spirituality, i feel as if i've distanced from everyone. Like, my church cell, i haven't met them in a month. And my own cell, we haven't met up since 3 weeks ago, and the previous one was 2 months ago. It's just i feel like i have nobody to run the race with me, and i just feel like giving up. One by one, all are faltering. And believe me, i've ever had serious thoughts about giving up too, cos it all seems so easy, to backslide from christianity and all, and with no one to be accountable to, it just feels like it's the right thing to do, cos i ain't living it out anyway.
Well, now, main focus, studies, volleyball, and hopefully get back on track with God. Some things just aren't fair, like how bad things always happen to good people, and the bad people seem to be living the good life. I'm a good guy, i feel i deserve good things in my life. But it just ain't happening... It just ain't happening.
joash lee at 11:52 PM