Why do we love?

I got some songs from Fiona, like ALOT of songs. I've been trying to get songs from everybody, so I can extend my song database. Damn I need a bigger Ipod. I just started to listen to three artistes, and I'm beginning to love them. Ashanti, Angels and Airwaves, and Jason Mraz. I didn't like Mraz at first, but after listening to his new album, whoa, I'm like totally in his songs now. Lovely acoustics. A&A's music is damn good, I love how they start their songs. Really good music. Ashanti's R&B, I started to listening to this genre, and I realised that it's really good for studying. Nothing much to ramble about, all on my lj. See y'all soon.

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Decided to ramble more. I seriously am screwing up my spiritual life. I don't know why I keep doing this. I really sincerely honestly want to get back to God, but it's so friggin hard to concentrate when no one's around to help you. I feel like a non-christian already. Now I know what it means to be "hanging by a thread". I'm literally hanging, cos my whole spiritual life, all my Sunday mornings, are gonna be spent in vain, if i don't turn around my spiritual life now. Everyone's not caring anymore. Studies is priority, neglecting relationships. The fact that I talk to my brother less than I talk to the drinks stall aunty says something about my r/s. I really love my family, but I just can't seem to get the fact that i'm in such a "perfect" family, born a christian, loved by family, everything's so picture perfect. Sometimes I'd really want to be in some sort of crisis, so that I can cherish what I have. Otherwise I'll take them all for granted. I don't want to continue like this, living this mundane life on Earth, where everybody is worried about money, and where people are so cold and heartless to each other. Competitive to see who gets into a better uni, who gets a higher rank in the army, see who gets better grades. What happened to friends and family? Those of you who have a gf/bf, treat him/her with love, and really do so, and i'm not talking about sexually. Love with everything you've got, cos this world is becoming more and more unloveable.

Hope that someday it'll change.