Why do we love?

unwavering faith. crossroads. i guess now's the moment. there have been lots of things that are wavering my faith, causing me to think that all these christianity stuff are wrong. and i dun want to believe that. like contradictions in the Bible, false faith and all that crap. clarence asked me a undoubtly unanswerable question that stumped me. 'why do people preach on the Bible when they don't do what it says? if they are not perfect how can they preach to someone to correct their flaws using God's word?' i was stumped. i didnt know what to say. i felt like what he said, preaching to people about stuff when i dun even obey the Bible completely. i felt like a stupid hypocrite, 'conning' people by quoting verses from the Bible to correct them of their mistakes. now i'm really uncertain. if people call themselves christians, why do they not live the christian life? i guess i'm one of them. its now or never. either i live totally for him, or i backslide. there are so many doubts about the christian faith. i don't know what to do now. i'm really at a loss. perhaps i'll wait for God to send a HUGE sign. i'm praying and hoping for that sign to come fast, showing me that i was never wrong in believing. btw christianity is not a way of life. its a relationship with God. many people cant get that fact right. but i'm in no position to tell anyone that now. i'm a hypocrite.

on a lighter note, i went to cineleisure today and watched goal! with 2C'04 peeps. its really a great show. you can feel the guy's emotions and all, it was perfect. it evoked my feelings so much that i nearly cried because it was so touching. it was like you're in the movie. okay. i'll rate it 5/5. you all should go watch it. its the best movie i've ever watched. ever.