Why do we love?

well, went for friendly 'tournament' today at shuqun. things got better, because i remembered that God is there, and he was helping me through. i prayed quite a bit while at the tournament. so that's a great improvement for me. haahah. well, first match, some guy in my team was slacking, he was playing like he didn't want to. so we like lost to some juniors. i was damn pissed, NEARLY said a few vulgarities, but luckily i refrained. yeah. and i don't get angry often. i knew God was there, so yeah. so, now i'm trying real hard to remember God, everywhere i go, and in everything i do.

these few days, i've been doing stuff that i've never did before. somehow i feel that some barrier in my life is gone. now i don't care what other people think about me, i just do what i feel like doing. like when i walk on the streets, i'll tend to think what other people will think of me, the way i walk, the way i do stuff, the way i talk. yeah. sounds stupid right? but i think everyone has it. so now, don't be afraid of being yourself. because its your life, do whatever you want with it. but then again i've been thinking, shouldn't we lay down our whole life at his feet, doing his will only, and denying yourself, but let Jesus shine through you? so how can you be yourself and be an imitator of Jesus at the same time? somebody please give me an answer. tag me. i'd really like to know. i don't know if i'm doing the right thing by being MYSELF.

how great is our God, sing with me
how great is our God, and all will see
how great, how great, is our God.