Why do we love?

why the heck do i even friggin' care. there we go again. on this 'whocares' mood. where i complain on my blog that no one cares. i won't do it today. i think you've had enough. i don't want to complain here. just...forget it. somethings changed thats for sure. i don't think its me. so it has to be you. so now, with all the worries and stuff, i'll just indulge myself with exercise, training, drumming, guitaring, and MUGGING. basically training and mugging. the two major things that keep my mind off worries. that leads me to a world of pain and suffering, away from a world of.....well, pain and suffering. i wonder when the next world will open up their doors to take me in. no more pain and suffering, just rejoicing and praising. well, lets face reality. the world is not my home to begin with. as long as there's no pain and suffering forever. thats the bottom line. three years ago, i've been saying all these stuff about being tired, and don't want care anymore. three years later, i'm still pressing on. why? because of something i believe in, that things would change, and get better, and that everything will work out for good. things have changed alright, but for good? i don't think so. maybe for the worse. i'll be damned. everytime i look back, i wonder why things turned out the way it is now. you may say i'm stubborn and not let go of the past, but it's hard, especially when the world's against you. screw the world.

i always thought,
you're the little angel that is going to bring me through this tough life,
and someday you'll take me to heaven.
but it wasn't meant to be.....