Why do we love?

i realised that it all could crumble, one piece at a time, yet i'm still hanging on... i've never been this way before. now that i've experienced it, i know exactly how you feel, it's not easy. i put myself in your shoes for the first time. it's hard. memories like debris, falling on me, and i'm falling to pieces at the broken memories, hanging by a thread, and i'm not letting go.

memories just keep stabbing me, yet i'm pressing on. i used to think i couldn't live without you, i realised i can, it's just super duper extra tough. you were the one who listened to my complains, carried my burdens, but now, i mean nothing to you. it's crumbling, everything. when you think that everything will still be alright after this setback, wham! another one comes at you, before you even know it. i've got 2 in 2 days already. i wonder what's in stored for me tomorrow. yesterday was the ultimate test, but today's one, i didn't take it so hard. but all in all, it still hurts, just as bad.

was talking to lissa that day, and i concluded that bad things don't only happen to bad people, they happen to spiritual people too. God wants to test your faith, so when he knows you're ready, he'll put an obstacle. if you pull through, you become closer to God. if you don't, you backslide.

that's the way the cookie crumbles...