Why do we love?

joash lee at 7:05 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

i haven't blogged in years. okay, that's an exaggeration. well, let's see. routined life, everyday i'll head to school at 7.45am, do stuff till 1pm, go for lunch, go back to school study till about 6pm. after which i'll head down to KAP Macdonalds to mug. that has been pretty much most of my week. i never knew studying could take up so much time. it's all focus now, no time for fun.

yunxing and ian said i looked fat, since i've been eating macdonalds for 11 days in a row, so i went to the gym today, with julia. guess what? i'm only 55kg. i lost 1kg. HAHA, that's for you yx and ian. i'm afraid my arteries would get clogged up, so i'm cutting down on unhealthy stuff. i'm the terrence wannabe. drink evian, eat salad. haha, healthy lifestyle!

on the side note, i feel like a remtard(carissa's invention). i've been through so much, yet i keep pulling myself into more. God is so near, yet so far. i don't know where's his hand in this. If you can't trace His hand, trust His heart. i don't want to go through all these again. All things work for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose. i'm letting go, and letting God be the driver of my car. Jesus, take the wheel.

joash lee at 7:44 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

it's been so long since i last blogged. guess i've been so caught up with studies.. but thankfully i haven't neglected my walk with God. its still going on and strong. once i drift away, God'll make me feel so empty inside, and make me want to draw near to him again. it's awesome how God works isn't it? only He can satisfy the God-shaped hole in our lives.

i've been thinking of conformity the past week, and i felt led by the Spirit to write a song about it. its titled "Renewed", and the theme is taken from Romans 12:2, and in the process of writing the song, i thought of Hebrews 12:2 and Psalm 37:4 too. here it is, enjoy. Glory to God.

Renewed

Verse 1
Jesus, Saviour of the world
I just want you to know
I don't want to be led astray by the world
I just want to be lost in your love

Chorus
I'm sorry Lord
But I keep following the worldly patterns
Forgive me Lord
I want to delight myself in your ways, in your truth
Oh cleanse me and I'll be renewed

Verse 2
Though I've learnt it the hard way now
That only you can satisfy
I want to reflect your beauty and light
All of you and no more of me

Bridge
I don't want my selfish desires
All I want is your will in my life
I don't want the earthly desires
Jesus I want to focus my eyes
On you, on you

©opyright 2006 Joash Lee

joash lee at 7:38 PM

Tuesday, October 3, 2006

i'm a mere human. He's God. what can i do but kneel before him humbly, awestruck in adoration? i've learnt to let go of everything, and lay it down at His feet. after all, He's God. and i'm so assured that He makes all things beautiful IN HIS TIME. if you try to rush things, it may not be beautiful anymore. so relax, let God take charge. i'm struggling to not rush into things. love is patient. love perseveres.

BREATHING

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
though I don't really know what I'm gonna do when I get there
and take a breath and hold on tight
spin around one more time
and gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

cause I am hanging on every word you say and
even if you don't want to speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
cause I want nothing more than
to sit outside Heaven's door
and listen to you breathing
is where I wanna be yeah

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and I'm
trying to identify the voices in my head
God which one's you
let me feel one more time what it
feels like to feel and
break these calluses off of me
one more time

cause I am hanging on every word you say and
even if you don't wanna speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
cause I want nothing more than
to sit outside your door
and listen to your breathing
is where I wanna be yeah
where I wanna be

I don't want a thing from you
bet you're tired of me
waiting for the scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
cause I just want to be here now

cause I am hanging on every word you say and
even if you don't wanna speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
cause I want nothing more than
to sit outside Heaven's door
and listen to your breathing
is where I wanna be yeah

cause I am hanging on every word you say and
even if you don't wanna speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
cause I want nothing more than
to sit outside Heaven's door
and listen to you breathing
is where I wanna be yeah
where I wanna be
where I wanna be

joash lee at 6:01 PM

Sunday, October 1, 2006

i've mastered the basic piano skills, credit to rebecca lok. (:

joash lee at 10:27 PM