Why do we love?

i haven't blogged in years. okay, that's an exaggeration. well, let's see. routined life, everyday i'll head to school at 7.45am, do stuff till 1pm, go for lunch, go back to school study till about 6pm. after which i'll head down to KAP Macdonalds to mug. that has been pretty much most of my week. i never knew studying could take up so much time. it's all focus now, no time for fun.

yunxing and ian said i looked fat, since i've been eating macdonalds for 11 days in a row, so i went to the gym today, with julia. guess what? i'm only 55kg. i lost 1kg. HAHA, that's for you yx and ian. i'm afraid my arteries would get clogged up, so i'm cutting down on unhealthy stuff. i'm the terrence wannabe. drink evian, eat salad. haha, healthy lifestyle!

on the side note, i feel like a remtard(carissa's invention). i've been through so much, yet i keep pulling myself into more. God is so near, yet so far. i don't know where's his hand in this. If you can't trace His hand, trust His heart. i don't want to go through all these again. All things work for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose. i'm letting go, and letting God be the driver of my car. Jesus, take the wheel.