Why do we love?

God commands all of us to love one another. it's practically impossible, you say. think twice. is it really impossible? i guess it's all about give and take. some people just want to take more, so if you're loving enough, you'll just... give more! no need to get upset. true love is seen, when a man would lay down his life for his brother/friend. ain't this agape love? what's in stored for Jesus if he died on the cross? nothing good for Him, just pain, shame and suffering. but he saw the longterm goal. to save us from all evil, and prevent us from spending eternity in hell. What kind of love is this? AGAPE.

was watching EPL highlights yesterday, and saw a few stunning goals. one spectacular goal caught my eye, steven gerrard's. he trapped the ball, focused on the goal, took a shot, and it went in. it reminded me so so much of the Christian walk. most of the time we just keep looking at the ball, aimlessly dribbling, with no purpose in mind. but God tells us to "fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith" He's our ultimate goal. as long as we keep our eyes focused on Jesus, the goal, we'll definitely score, as Steven Gerrard did. how many of us want to continue in aimlessly dribbling, satisfied with not letting the opponent having the ball? or take a step further, aim for the goal? at the end of the road of life, will we look at the goal and say, "oh, so there's where i was supposed to go!", or will we shout in joy, "GOAL!" ?

success is not about possessions, its about decisions. (an ad by a credit card company)

joash lee at 9:55 PM

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

i've got an organ. so far, one acoustic guitar, one electric guitar, and an organ. all i need is a drumset. any sponsors? haha. this whole week was a bore, so far. monday, stay home. colin played xbox360 with me, fifa'07, the whole day. yesterday, sentosa, not too bad. suntanned with jiayi, played volleyball and beach soccer with many people. i'm chaotah, and sunburnt. i'll try to recall who's there. chye aik, clarence, sherman, esmonde, peter, jiayi, cedric, ian, david, norman, tiffany, shane, melissa, cheryl, joshua kong, kimberley, lissa, alex. that's about it i guess. sorry if i can't recall. yeah. today, stayed home, jamming with david, few hours, and practiced for cell. then... xbox 360! haha. kinda fun. but gets boring after a while. went to campus crusade sale last night, spent 224 bucks on books, bibles and CDs. rock on. oh yah, did i mention? i've got two blisters on my 2nd and 3rd left toe, i've got sand stuck in my scratches on my foot, skin peeling on my shoulders, and the burn on my elbow was nearly infected, it hurts like crap. all this is the result of a day at sentosa. conclusion? decide for yourself.

joash lee at 10:22 PM

Friday, November 24, 2006

at nicholas' house, a lil' boring. 2C "chalet", only 20 people turned up. we've watched movies, played PS2s, played volleyball, soccer, late night chats, played with the dog, and everything possible thing is done. we have nothing left to do. (why do you think i'm even blogging?) well, i've applied for MI, Science stream. that's the most exciting news i've got this week. other than that, its boring. and for the electric guitar, i'm cool. getting an organ from colin, saving up for a drumset. then i'll have a full band in my house. yay. okay, i'm going to play PS2 now, see you guys..

joash lee at 6:22 PM

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

God, truly is amazing. and prayer works wonders.

Pray Until Something Happens

joash lee at 9:42 AM

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

looks like i invested in the wrong friendship. all the effort, the kindness, the time, the smses, the help. all went to the wrong people. i didn't give it to the right ones, who needed it more, who would appreciate it more, instead, a bunch of ungrateful people. but i know love does not go to waste, because God is love, and we should love everyone. this is the highest order of love, giving without expecting anything in return. then why am i feeling unthanked? i keep feeling someone owes me. everything i did, should have been for a better cause. God, what was i thinking? i kept thinking that i would get something in return (which is not agape love), but instead, i got nothing. this left me high and dry, living a world all by myself, without anyone to share it with(friends, not lovers). i really really desire for a close friend. God, send one please. the ones i have don't regard me as such.

Jesus, you're my best friend.

joash lee at 10:20 PM

Sunday, November 19, 2006

hey all. i'm proud to say that i'm an owner of an ibanez-gio don'tknowwhatmodel electric guitar. my posts will be short these few days, cos i'm busy jamming, yeah! see you all! shoutout to all, have fun!

joash lee at 10:28 PM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

trust God, and he'll definitely make a way. i'm so glad he did for me. (:

joash lee at 5:45 PM

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

after all that's been said and done, i'm nothing but a classmate to you. only a classmate. ouch ouch. i guess i won't be holding on to this friendship anymore, if its a one way thing, because its tiring. i guess the hardest part of holding on is letting it go. i don't know anymore. i treated you as the closest friend on earth, seriously, but now, i know, i'm just a classmate in your eyes. the more i try, the more you pull back. let history repeat itself. maybe it won't hurt so much, since we're all leaving the school already..

joash lee at 8:14 AM

Friday, November 10, 2006

It's 6 more days to the end of the 'O' levels. Am i really going to find satisfaction in not studying? Or do i want to keep up this 'lifestyle' of mugging, to be a nerd? I'm kidding. ALL HELL BREAK LOOSE ON THE 17th MAN!!!! WOOHOO!

but seriously, i used to find studying a huge chore for me. but since this year, i learnt to enjoy it, and that it wasn't as hard as i thought it would be, after all. so far, all the papers were manageable, all except biology. i didn't have enough time to finish my essays. so yeah, trusting in the Lord to pull me through. today's Emath paper 2. from 2.30pm-5pm. crazy.

i guess this time of my life would just be another milestone, one that i managed to cross with the aid of the Lord. how could i ever live without him? that would be the worst nightmare. i've learnt so many things throughout my secondary school life. mostly about social stuff. i guess i've placed my social life a rank too high, above my studies and all. at one point in time, perhaps above God. i felt quite miserable, soon after, i learnt, and things were back to normal. friends play an important role in my life. they are the ones who see you through, listen to you, and stick with you.

the highest order of friendship, or on the deeper level, love, is not when two people are madly in love with one another. it's when a man would willingly lay down his life for a friend. AGAPE LOVE. it means, a profound concern for the welfare of another person without any desire to control that other, to be thanked by the other, or to enjoy the process. i guess this was the most valuable lesson i've learnt. and God showed me how to show agape love to those friends that i love, and maybe deeper.

joash lee at 9:38 AM