Why do we love?

It's 6 more days to the end of the 'O' levels. Am i really going to find satisfaction in not studying? Or do i want to keep up this 'lifestyle' of mugging, to be a nerd? I'm kidding. ALL HELL BREAK LOOSE ON THE 17th MAN!!!! WOOHOO!

but seriously, i used to find studying a huge chore for me. but since this year, i learnt to enjoy it, and that it wasn't as hard as i thought it would be, after all. so far, all the papers were manageable, all except biology. i didn't have enough time to finish my essays. so yeah, trusting in the Lord to pull me through. today's Emath paper 2. from 2.30pm-5pm. crazy.

i guess this time of my life would just be another milestone, one that i managed to cross with the aid of the Lord. how could i ever live without him? that would be the worst nightmare. i've learnt so many things throughout my secondary school life. mostly about social stuff. i guess i've placed my social life a rank too high, above my studies and all. at one point in time, perhaps above God. i felt quite miserable, soon after, i learnt, and things were back to normal. friends play an important role in my life. they are the ones who see you through, listen to you, and stick with you.

the highest order of friendship, or on the deeper level, love, is not when two people are madly in love with one another. it's when a man would willingly lay down his life for a friend. AGAPE LOVE. it means, a profound concern for the welfare of another person without any desire to control that other, to be thanked by the other, or to enjoy the process. i guess this was the most valuable lesson i've learnt. and God showed me how to show agape love to those friends that i love, and maybe deeper.