Why do we love?

looks like i invested in the wrong friendship. all the effort, the kindness, the time, the smses, the help. all went to the wrong people. i didn't give it to the right ones, who needed it more, who would appreciate it more, instead, a bunch of ungrateful people. but i know love does not go to waste, because God is love, and we should love everyone. this is the highest order of love, giving without expecting anything in return. then why am i feeling unthanked? i keep feeling someone owes me. everything i did, should have been for a better cause. God, what was i thinking? i kept thinking that i would get something in return (which is not agape love), but instead, i got nothing. this left me high and dry, living a world all by myself, without anyone to share it with(friends, not lovers). i really really desire for a close friend. God, send one please. the ones i have don't regard me as such.

Jesus, you're my best friend.