Why do we love?

Have you ever felt like you're such a failure in life, and everything can't be worse than it seems? Well, i've felt it. In fact, I'm feeling it. So many commitments, so much to do, and so little time. There's always a silver lining in every cloud. Man Utd thrashed Newcastle 6-0. It's the best news for the whole week, and that was Man Utd's bestest game so far. Glory Man Utd!

But i guess life's like that, always coming up with surprises. You can't expect everything to bo so smooth flowing right? I thought J1 was gonna be great. I mean, it's good so far, slacking and all. But somehow i feel that i can't connect with them y'know? And it doesn't help that there always aren't guys in my class. 08A05, 19 girls, 4 guys. Good? Think again. Last year was 15 girls, 6 guys. It gets worse every year. Why can't there be guys!!! Is Literature a girly subject!? NO! Now you know why i always treasure the times with volleyball guys and fairfield guys. BECAUSE THERE ARE NO GUYS IN MY SCHOOL TO HANG OUT WITH.

I'm just typing random stuff. Whatever that comes to my mind. Honestly, I haven't done any work since studying for Promos. It's been what, 3 months!? How? i don't know. Lessons have become so mundane that i don't know why i'm going to school. i don't know what i'm studying for. I just wanna be free from Singapore's oh-so-competitive education system. If you can't study, you're out. The elite is the norm. Ain't it true? Once you're near or below average, whee! You'll never make it anywhere. Even taxi drivers have to have an O level cert. What if the choo train students at the IB programme failed their exams? They'll have neither A nor O level certs. Can't even be taxi driver. I'm not aiming anyone here, just some random thoughts.

I wonder how high does Singapore wanna climb. It's just every man for himself, dog eat everything else world. Even to eat, must have qualifications. It's just so pressurizing. Oh, i bought new shoes today. Adidas Predito. New design, white, and it's cheap! 59 bucks. I have like no money now. Lol. I told you i'm random. And I played with Mark Tan's PSP the entire day. Virtua Tennis is so so fun. I climbed 200 ranks in a day. That's how much i played today. HAHA.

Everyone's following the 'must have certs' mentality. I really want to be different. But sometimes i just don't dare. You know how hard it is to be different from the rest? Of course you won't know, you've never tried. As said in Econs today, Singaporeans are risk avers. The blind leading the blind. Smart blinds too.

Remember in sec 3? My dream to be a chef. Why can't i pursue that? Now i'm heavily involved in sports, why can't i be a physiologist, because i'm really fascinated by the way our body works? I'm really into music too, I can play drums and guitar, why can't i form a band and go round on a world tour, spreading God's love through gigs and our songs? Why can't i do all? COS I HAVE TO SIT FOR STUPID A LEVELS WHICH IS SO DAMN HARD. COS "IF I DON'T HAVE A CERT, SOCIETY AIN'T GONNA ACCEPT ME."

just for the record, the song that david and i wrote, "Over and over again", won a prize in his church, in fact david won an acoustic guitar. We have the potential. just no time. It was an evangelistic song, that we wrote to appeal to the non-christians, so they could connect with the song. And when david played the song at an evangelistic event, they felt it, and lo and behold we won the prize.

Everyone's fighting for a place in the corporate world. They wanna go to work at 8am at Raffles Place, and come home at 530pm. I think to myself. What a boring and mundane thing. Of course this is my personal opinion lah. I could never do it. I hate routine. Even school's a chore for me. Okay, i'm quite tired already. So i wanna go and sleep soon. And i think i wrote enough. Think about what i've typed. Let those brains wreck. Take time to relax, don't follow the crowd.