Why do we love?

Chapelton was the bomb man. It was awesome. At first it was a little boring, then after a while, when David hyped the crowd up, we just prayed and invited God into the place.. Then after asking everyone forward, we started Hosanna and after that, everyone sang their hearts out, all the way. I really really felt ministered just now, i mean, we only practiced once, and it's amazing what God can do with you, if you just lay it at his feet. Surrender it all to him, and he shall be in control. I really really felt his presence in the place, and just worshipped freely, with no burdens attached.

Midyears were not too bad. I know i keep saying this in every post, but i just want to remind myself how happy i am, so i can work hard and strive to get better results, to make me happier. Last year's results were terrible, this year was a drastic improvement. (:

GP - D (2007), D (2008)
CL - B (2007)
Maths - U to a B
Econs - very very low U, to an S
Literature - very very low U, one more paper's results to be released
Biology - ultimate low U, to an E

When i say very very low, it's like 20-something per cent, overall mark. And for Bio, it was below 20 per cent, i think 16, for overall. That's how terrible i was last year. And I'm proud to say it's a great achievement. But this is only MYE, and i can't be complacent, so I'm gonna keep to my studying method and just chiong for promos. I wanna get at least a C for alll subs, and an A for math!! (:(:

Anyway, onto the spiritual/emotional side, i think i'm becoming more and more emo. Like, I really don't wish to hang out with anyone anymore, and just be a chao mugger. I just want the results so badly. And I've been thinking about life and all again, I just don't know what to do, what I'm here for, what my purpose is, and as Mr Sas puts it, finding our fulfilment in life is a form of art, and without it, it's meaningless. This is what literature does to you. It makes you think, it forces you to come out of your oh-so-tiny brain and think and think and question and ponder, what the hell are you doing in this Earth and why are you living this life. There's ought to be more than this, what's next? What's new? I keep questioning, I need some damn answers! tsk tsk!