Why do we love?

I've come to realise that life isn't all about studying, all about volleyball. I realised that life is about having a relationship with God, developing it, and nurturing it to become meaningful. And I'm definitely guilty of only talking to God when i'm in trouble, I just forget God when times are good y'know. I'm guilty of that, I admit. But I want to change all that. Really. I felt really really small last night, like a grain of sand, in the middle of the shore. But yesterday, I came upon this really really really beautiful song on my ipod by Corinne May, Five Loaves and Two Fishes. It's a song about a story in the Bible, where a boy gave up his lunch of 5 loaves and 2 fishes to Jesus, and he multiplied it to feed 5000 people. Coincidentally (or not), yesterday's sermon was about this too. I felt like I was useless yesterday, till I heard this song, and I know that my God, is able to use any amount of talent or potential you may have to change the world, so never, ever doubt your little capability. This video made me cry, take 5 mins just to watch it, will you?

Five Loaves and Two Fishes

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all"

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small